Sad...

I don't know what other word to describe what I'm feeling. My beloved Daddy passed away March 20. He was way too young. On a selfish note I am not ready to spend the rest of my life without him. To say I am numb and still not totally understanding how long forever is, would be an understatement. I keep picking up the phone to call him and remember my phone doesn't reach heaven. I thought I had a plan to keep my head up this year and recover from all the losses but this one has knocked me for a loop. I know I need to get to the sewing machine but all I really want to do is sleep, which is better then my usual comfort which has always been food. I just want to sleep and wake up to this being a horrible nightmare that didn't really happen. No such luck I think. I've never had anything knock my happy nature for a real loop but this has. Like I said SAD.... Wendy